Free Condoms.

I recently heard this video on YouTube (which I'm sure you have all seen) where the guy in it refers to the "church" as a hospital for sinners........Which I think is what it is supposed to be, but I went to church this morning.

I was sitting there and as I listened to all of the "I's", what "I" can do to fix myself, what "I" can do to make it work, what "I"....... the list went on and on. 

I left the church feeling a bit empty. The sermon was on Depression, and lets just say I left feeling a little depressed. 

We were told all of these things about how depression affects you and some steps to change your thinking. 

The message today was a "SELF HELP" sermon. Not a spiritual encounter with my God and how his great power will change you. 

At no point did we ever call up people who felt depressed and pray over them and declare in Jesus name that the evil spirit of depression and the way of thinking be cast out. 

I just felt like I wasn't in a hospital. If you have ever gone to a hospital you don't leave the hospital with and open wound and have them tell you to come back next week. You would never stand for that. You would expect someone to look at the wound and say "AHHHH... lets clean that thing up and freaking stitch it together before you bleed to death!" .... you would expect everyone to be on their A-game and get to work right? Call the head Doctor!!! and nurse, and anesthetist and therapist......Not just tell you how you got the cut and then ways to prevent it next time??? 

Instead, I felt as though I was in a Free Health Clinic and they were passing out condoms. A safe way to live, not beneficial in anyway, but its got some protection, and it makes you feel a little better about the way your living. Here, do what you please, but just be sure you use this and do this, and you will be fine. When in reality we never fix the real problem......

I just think that as we see things like this happening in the church we should stop and reassess our views on God and Jesus and the Holy Spirit. Aren't they the ones who are supposed to fix us? Yea we do things to get there, but we can't do it on our own. And for those who don't think praying over someone is okay in church and should be saved for another time. Check yourself.  

No Longer Lindsey.

I came to this realization about two weeks ago, because for a year I had been in a position where being Christ was just normal. I never thought about "Lindsey" because there wasn't time or the option. But, 

I came off of the World Race,

Emotionally confused and suffering from serious culture shock, my physical body freaked. 

It went searching for a serious love and affirmation that I had been receiving from God for 11 months, from mere humans. 

 I actually had one experience while looking for that love in man, that my Spirit actually cried. I was actually physically crying but yet it wasn't "me" crying..... My physical body was loving the affirmation from man, but my Spirit lost it. It couldn't handle it. My Spirit was literally weeping, and after a good 14 hours of actually crying I realized that nothing on this Earth can satisfy Lindsey. 

I was being loved, yet I felt nothing.

I was comfortable, but so uncomfortable.

I was rested, but felt so restless.

Life was easy, but I never felt so uneasy.

I was given everything, but I had nothing.

I was surrounded by people, but felt so alone.

I made a choice exactly a year ago, to deny Lindsey, that she no longer lives, but that Christ lives in this physical body and just now I am realizing how big of a deal that was...........

In my physical body I feel like I'm in a foreign place. 

My flesh isn't mine anymore, its something that my Spirit has borrowed for 63years, so it can do work.

My flesh disgusts me now. 

It craves all of these things, that I want nothing to be apart of.

My Spirit which is the same Spirit that was in Jesus, is now alive.

It wants more.

It wants to be closer to its Father.

It wants to be closer to its children that are starving.

It wants to be helping those who can't help themselves.

It wants to tell everyone about Jesus.

It wants to heal the sick.

It wants to free the captives. 

It wants sex trade to stop. 

It wants oppression to end.

It wants peace for everyone.

It wants to spread hope.

It wants to love......................................

I've come to do work on this Earth. It is about to go down.